Day 5 of Week 6 I Want To Soar Again

Weight today: same if not slightly more...(it's hard to tell with my scale.)

Total Lost: 10 pounds in 5 1/2 weeks

1/2 cup of oatmeal: 150

2 tsp of sugar:30

1/3 cup of skim milk:30

1 tbl of powder coffee creamer for coffee:30

with sweet-n-low:0

total:240

4 oz banana:100
vanilla protein shake:110
total: 210
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running total:450

1 jumbo egg:90
1 jumbo egg white:17
lefse:30
1/2 cup of fat free cottage cheese:80
4 oz of strawberries:36
1 oz of blueberries: 15
1 tsp of sugar:15
2 Laughing Cow pieces:10
1 tbl of powder creamer with coffee:30
with sweet-n-low:0
total: 310
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running tota: 760

pretzels:125
rice crispie bar:90
total: 215
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running total: 975

5 tbl of chocolate malt-o- meal: 215
2 tsp of sugar: 30
1/3 cup of skim milk: 30
2 laughing cow pieces: 10
1 tbl of powder coffee creamer:30
with sweet-n-low:0
2 pieces of honey graham crackers:30
total:345
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running total: 1340

tortilla chips: 75
3 tbl of humus: 75
small slice of strawberry and pineapple light cake:50
1 beverage:80
total:280
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total:1620

Today's Challenge: Hydration, with no snacking. If you looked at my final calorie count yesterday, you'll see I did a lot better yesterday on not snacking.

Planned fitness: 3 mile run with abdominals

Note on 1st picture: My latest food experiment. I picked up this four oz package of Laughing Cow Swiss Cheese bites for $2.19. Each cube is only five calories. I like the taste and it's kind of nice to grab a few of these when I feel like snacking on something, but don't want the calories...the story of this blog, right?

Note on 2nd picture: Each cube has a few little pieces of facts that you can amuse yourself with while munching on the cube. Maybe it's a ploy to keep your mind occupied so you don't snack mindlessly...you know cause you're using your mind.


I Want To Soar Again

So, here I am...I've lost 10 pounds. So, being ten pounds lighter, you would think, would put me in a good mood. Right?

I mean at the weight that I'm at right now...I could walk down the street and not feel uncomfortable with how I look. In fact, if I was not exercising and not watching my diet, I would think I was doing alright with the weight that I'm at.

But my perspective on my body has changed.

I'm working out and using this body to run, jump, weight lift...and all I can think is...these activities would be sooo much easier to do if I could drop those next ten pounds.

My runs would be easier if I carried less weight. I could run faster if I carried less weight. My belly would be flatter if I did more sit-ups. My legs and arms would look leaner if I lost more weight.

And so, instead of feeling good about these last ten pounds of weight loss, I feel determined and re-focused. I feel impatient and somewhat disgusted at the extra weight clinging to my frame. This weight loss is just the beginning of cultivating a new body. A body that can move faster, jump higher and live life more fully.

So, I can't wait to run at a breakneck pace with the wind in my face. I can't wait to let my body loose and let it fly. I can't wait to move around doing the every day things that people do, but to do it with strength, power, grace and ease.

I can't wait to feel my body full of that boundless energy that we used to have as kids. Where the things we wanted to do weren't hampered by a tired body, but by a body that liked being active, thrived off activity, and wanted to jump in feet first.

I can't wait to get to that point where instead of struggling to stay in the air, you're already up there and are letting the rising air currents carry you along...you're soaring.

Ya, so I don't want to just fly, I want to soar again.