I Have Something Else To Confess...

So, by now you all know that we have five children. Pictured to the right are our four younger ones.

When I first started this blog over eight months ago, I wanted to prove to myself and everyone else that a mother could have five kids and still look spectacular.

When I began, I wanted to show you all how to lose 20 pounds in 10 weeks. I knew I could do it because I had done it before. I wanted to share with you all how I went about doing it. I will admit that I was getting a little nervous towards the end. It got down to the wire, and I didn't lose that 20th pound until the day before my ten week deadline.

Along the way I made friends with and became encouraged by and inspired by many wonderful bloggers. I didn't realize how much I would enjoy having a diet blog where I could post all my fitness, and food related diet stuff. I didn't realize how much it would speak to my personality to be able to share like that. I didn't realize how much it would motivate me to press beyond the boundaries that I had set for myself, and achieve more than I thought was possible.

In this latest goal, I am even more surprised and awed at myself. I didn't realize that dropping out all the processed foods, sugar and white flour would have that kind of an effect on my body. I also didn't realize the insane grip that processed foods have on my body, and how eating it strips me of my self control and makes me want more of it.

Through this journey, I have learned that I shouldn't set limits on myself just because I've never done it before.

I've learned that our bodies are like vehicles. If you want to "drive" like a Porsche, you need to put in the premium fuel that a sports car like that needs.

I want to thank you for all of your excitement and encouraging words about yesterday's post. It IS pretty exciting to be training for a figure competition. It IS exciting to watch my body transform before my very eyes as more body fat drops away to reveal hard, toned muscles.

In fact, any day now the gal who is designing my suit said my fabric samples should arrive in the mail to begin the process of tailoring a suit just for me.

But through this whole process, there is something else that has happened. I feel like I'm more "on top" of things at home and in the world around me. Maybe because I have more energy and because I'm eating healthier and carrying less weight around.

But, the other confession is this... Even while I am dropping this weight and beginning to look like a million bucks, even while I am making plans to race 5Ks in the summer, even while I am making plans to compete in a body building show with my husband in October, even while I am enjoying my new slender wardrobe and my board flat belly...

Even while all that is going on...I feel a little sad.

Because I have been struggling with wanting to have more children versus dealing with the challenge of the children that we already have. My mind says...five is hard enough...keep this beautiful body you've worked so hard to get...but my heart wants more children and doesn't care about how my body looks.

Well......

I'm here to confess, that my heart won out.

We are so, so happy to share with you all that we are expecting baby number six.

*big smile*

So, yes, Sunshine Mama is officially pregnant. This picture was taken in the lobby of the hospital where I took the kids with me to await the results of the pregnancy test.

I'm five weeks along with no signs of morning sickness, but with a real or perhaps imagined slight pregnancy bump. The baby is due during the last week of October.

I guess the only question now is, do you all still want those bikini pictures? Ha, ha!!

We'll see.

Thanks for stopping by to visit. I hope your week is going well.

Sincerely,
Sunshine Mama